A little bit ago I posted an article on facebook called, “How to Care for someone with depression”. A short bit after, I received a text from my friend Larry that was wondering if I was depressed. I explained to him that when you have a disorder–when the chemicals just aren’t quite the way they should be, you always deal with depression. It’s always there. But for someone like me, I recognize the signs and I can keep it on the side and manage it–with lots of work of course.
Sometimes everything gets to be too much. Sometimes it takes all I have to get out of bed and crawl into a job where I am not appreciated and I am used. Sometimes I can feel the dark taking over my mind–mostly I can push it back. Sometimes I can’t.
Of course, I recognize the signs of what I am doing to myself and what is happening. In these times I make sure I am social–make sure I am pushing myself to be out with friends and out of the house. I know I will feel so much better once I do.
I just want to stay home–stay in my room. Not talk to anyone. Shut off my phone for days at a time.
Most of the time I can yank it off and throw it in the corner of my room.
Sometimes it all just gets overwhelming and I don’t know what to do.